I was having a pretty good day, had my workout, the kids were behaving. And then... DH texted me. The text asked if I wanted to be the unit ombudsman.
A few years ago, I would have jumped at the opportunity. But yesterday, it was like a punch in the gut.
The last position I had before I resigned, I was happy to leave. I liked everyone in the office. However, I was new and did not know who to trust. In addition, I went from autonomy to micromanaged. I left that position feeling like a failure.
So, to be asked if I wanted a job, those feelings of failure washed all over me. I can't do this, I think to myself. And then I think, well the team lead was a jerk, maybe I can do this.
And then I thought about my kids. I did look forward to moving so I could resign and be with my kids. I don't think I will look for a job when DS is preschool age like I first thought I would. I enjoy being able to take DD to school, to take the kids to the library, and have playgroups. Furthermore, I get to go to the gym.
I am sure I can do that job and not have my time with my kids challenged. Right now, I don't get to do my crafts because I am constantly keeping tabs on DS. Maybe when he is a bit older, I may take on the challenge, but for now... I am going to enjoy being a SAHM
We came from a place with a huge military presence and this place does not have one. I like it! The only real reminder that DH is military is when he brings his uniform home on Friday to be washed.
I don't think I want to do the job. I do have until the 15th of November to turn in my application. I may change my mind, but I don't think I will.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Friday, October 12, 2012
a little progress...
On Tuesday, I met with a Results Coordinator from the gym. We checked my weight and she asked me what my goals were and why I joined the gym. Since I want to lose weight and be healthy, she drew a triangle and said fitness and losing weight were like a triangle. Nutrition being 80% was on the bottom of the triangle and then cardio and strength took up the other sides. She also told me I should do cardio at least 4 times a week for 30 minutes each and strength training twice a week for 30 minutes. She mentioned that I should not do the strength training two days in a row. I found her to be very helpful. Since we had some time, she showed me how some of the equipment worked. I then signed up for a few personal training sessions.
I also signed up for my fitness pal. It keeps track of the food I eat and my exercise activity.
We had our first session this morning. It was hard, but I feel good. And then I weighed myself and I lost 3 pounds since Tuesday. Yay!
I find it humorous that DH cheats to lose weight. He takes laxative or drinks shakes to make him poop and then he makes weight until the next weigh in. I, on the other hand, have decided to work for my weight loss by actually watching what I eat and exercising.
Because the session was this morning, I had to wake DS and he did not get his morning nursing session, so he was not a happy camper in the child watch area.
After the gym, I was brave and went to Costco with the kids. We usually do those kinds of things on the weekend, when DH is home, but I wanted to get a few things and avoid the crowds. While the drive is about 45 minutes each way, the actual shopping part was stress free. The kids behaved and we did not have to wait to check out. I think I may do this more.
I'm hoping to have good news to share on the 18th.
I also signed up for my fitness pal. It keeps track of the food I eat and my exercise activity.
We had our first session this morning. It was hard, but I feel good. And then I weighed myself and I lost 3 pounds since Tuesday. Yay!
I find it humorous that DH cheats to lose weight. He takes laxative or drinks shakes to make him poop and then he makes weight until the next weigh in. I, on the other hand, have decided to work for my weight loss by actually watching what I eat and exercising.
Because the session was this morning, I had to wake DS and he did not get his morning nursing session, so he was not a happy camper in the child watch area.
After the gym, I was brave and went to Costco with the kids. We usually do those kinds of things on the weekend, when DH is home, but I wanted to get a few things and avoid the crowds. While the drive is about 45 minutes each way, the actual shopping part was stress free. The kids behaved and we did not have to wait to check out. I think I may do this more.
I'm hoping to have good news to share on the 18th.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Here's to the seasons
With a new season, comes change. We are making a few changes, hopefully for the better. Our house should be sold by mid month. While it was a great house, because we had to move, we could not afford to pay the mortgage in addition to rent on our new place. We've had to keep the utilities on to keep the house in show condition. It will be nice not to have to pay those bills.
When we received orders to come to this place, instead of getting stressed about finding a job and child care, I decided to stay home. It turned out the cost of child care at our last unit basically negated my pay check. And child care in this area is supposed to be one of the highest in the region.
I was actually excited to get to stay home with the kids. I found a preschool for DD and researched doctors and fitness places. Figuring the Y was probably the least expensive route for fitness, I was dismayed to learn how much more it would cost. In addition to the higher price, child care was an added fee and the closest facility was a bit far. I put the desire to get fit on hold and enjoyed the summer. Besides we had a swimming pool. We also have a fitness room, but I would have to wait until DH gets home from work to keep an eye on the kids and I need the pool because of arthritis.
I got a flier in the mail this past weekend for a gym with month to month memberships starting at $20. I decided to look them up after noticing one of the photos on the flyer had what looked like a child area. Most places that offer cheaper rates don't have child care, classes, or pools. The website had a wealth of information. The center has land and pool classes and child care. To get the membership with the child care is $20 more, but that includes other things like free tanning (not for me) free towel service, and few other things. But for $40 a month, that's a savings of $60 if I were to go to the Y. The child area was in a safe area. The pools are kept between 80 and 90 degrees. There is a whirlpool too. I think I may check out what this Zumba thing is finally. The center also offers open family swim time on the weekends. DD is excited to go swimming.
I really needed this. I've been feeling a bit depressed. Now I can have a way to channel stress and get fit.
When we received orders to come to this place, instead of getting stressed about finding a job and child care, I decided to stay home. It turned out the cost of child care at our last unit basically negated my pay check. And child care in this area is supposed to be one of the highest in the region.
I was actually excited to get to stay home with the kids. I found a preschool for DD and researched doctors and fitness places. Figuring the Y was probably the least expensive route for fitness, I was dismayed to learn how much more it would cost. In addition to the higher price, child care was an added fee and the closest facility was a bit far. I put the desire to get fit on hold and enjoyed the summer. Besides we had a swimming pool. We also have a fitness room, but I would have to wait until DH gets home from work to keep an eye on the kids and I need the pool because of arthritis.
I got a flier in the mail this past weekend for a gym with month to month memberships starting at $20. I decided to look them up after noticing one of the photos on the flyer had what looked like a child area. Most places that offer cheaper rates don't have child care, classes, or pools. The website had a wealth of information. The center has land and pool classes and child care. To get the membership with the child care is $20 more, but that includes other things like free tanning (not for me) free towel service, and few other things. But for $40 a month, that's a savings of $60 if I were to go to the Y. The child area was in a safe area. The pools are kept between 80 and 90 degrees. There is a whirlpool too. I think I may check out what this Zumba thing is finally. The center also offers open family swim time on the weekends. DD is excited to go swimming.
I really needed this. I've been feeling a bit depressed. Now I can have a way to channel stress and get fit.
Great start to a new season!
Yay! It's Fall! I love the brisk weather and the changing colors. Seeing the purples and oranges makes me want to craft. I'll get to do some this weekend hopefully. I want to make some fall cards, and start on the Christmas cards. I also signed up to bring salty snacks for DD's class, so I am going to decorate the bags with the snacks.
Speaking of snacks and DD. She had her day to bring snacks. I found a snack on Pinterest. I think it went really well. I also googled skinning kiwi and found such an easy way to skin the kiwi. We made rainbow skewers.
We also went apple picking. Both kids loved munching on the apples.
DD had a field trip to the farm and she got to get real close with the animals. We were in the same pen as an emu. Her favorite thing was milking the cow. We also picked some pumpkins.
We also went to the beach! The beach of Lake Michigan. The water was very pretty. It was a nice day to go.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
The monkey on my back
This post is about DS, LOL
He's a little monkey.
Twice today, I wore him on my back to get things done.
This morning after we dropped DD off at school, I needed to clean up the kitchen. DS wanted to be held. While I would have preferred to just veg out on the couch, I know I have to be a responsible adult every once in a while. So, I put him in the Beco and placed him on my back so I could wash the dishes. He gets very excited when he rides on my back. He was very quiet after a while and I forgot I was wearing him, I was backing up and I backed into the fridge which made him cry a little. But he overcame it. After the dishes were done, I sat on the couch and nursed him until he fell asleep. He slept until it was time to get DD from school.
After lunch, he was having fun playing with a ball. He was bouncing it and chasing it. He even tried to put it in the tall laundry hamper. I think I know what he's going to get for Christmas, LOL.
The kids were napping, so I decided to prep for dinner. As I was nearly finished cooking part of the dinner, I could hear DS making noise. I went and grabbed him. He wanted to be held, but I needed to clean up, so I put him again on my back.
I like to clean up as I work, unlike DH who makes big messes while he cooks. And I could be like him, but I know that I would have to clean up later. I also know how he is with cleaning, if he does not see it in front of him, it does not get washed. Also, once he's met his quota (whatever that may be) he's done.
He's a little monkey.
Twice today, I wore him on my back to get things done.
This morning after we dropped DD off at school, I needed to clean up the kitchen. DS wanted to be held. While I would have preferred to just veg out on the couch, I know I have to be a responsible adult every once in a while. So, I put him in the Beco and placed him on my back so I could wash the dishes. He gets very excited when he rides on my back. He was very quiet after a while and I forgot I was wearing him, I was backing up and I backed into the fridge which made him cry a little. But he overcame it. After the dishes were done, I sat on the couch and nursed him until he fell asleep. He slept until it was time to get DD from school.
After lunch, he was having fun playing with a ball. He was bouncing it and chasing it. He even tried to put it in the tall laundry hamper. I think I know what he's going to get for Christmas, LOL.
The kids were napping, so I decided to prep for dinner. As I was nearly finished cooking part of the dinner, I could hear DS making noise. I went and grabbed him. He wanted to be held, but I needed to clean up, so I put him again on my back.
I like to clean up as I work, unlike DH who makes big messes while he cooks. And I could be like him, but I know that I would have to clean up later. I also know how he is with cleaning, if he does not see it in front of him, it does not get washed. Also, once he's met his quota (whatever that may be) he's done.
Monday, September 17, 2012
catch up
Eek! Sorry it's been a while since my last post.
Fall is around the corner. I can't wait for the temps to come down!
DD started preschool after Labor day. She goes twice a week for about 2 hours a day. Right now, the teachers are gauging each child's capabilities. In January, the parents get a report on how much the child has improved. While I know DD is pretty smart, she needs to work on her coordination (as I draft this, she is working on a puzzle all by herself). For her class, each child takes a turn to bring in snacks for the class. On snack day, that child also has show and tell. DD's day is coming up next week. So far the snacks have been crackers or pretzels and juice. While she will eat pretzels and crackers on occasion, it is not something I usually give her. I was trying to think about what I give her for a snack and she usually has fruit, yogurt, or applesauce. Because of allergy, dietary, and religious considerations, the snacks must be peanut/meat/gelatin free. I was looking online for creative snack ideas and found one with fruit pieces on a skewer and it was called rainbow fruit. I think we will bring those in for her turn. I will blog on that after her snack day.
I also enrolled her in dance class. She loved her first day. There are 4 other girls in her class. She can't wait to go again today.
DS is a walking machine! We got him some shoes from stride rite because I wanted him to have some appropriate for his stage in walking. He had not worn shoes prior to this, so we got his feet measured and he got two pair. They were having a sale!
I finally got a chance to do some crafting~ blog to follow
We should find out in Dec if DH got the promotion and if we will be moving in the summer.
Fall is around the corner. I can't wait for the temps to come down!
DD started preschool after Labor day. She goes twice a week for about 2 hours a day. Right now, the teachers are gauging each child's capabilities. In January, the parents get a report on how much the child has improved. While I know DD is pretty smart, she needs to work on her coordination (as I draft this, she is working on a puzzle all by herself). For her class, each child takes a turn to bring in snacks for the class. On snack day, that child also has show and tell. DD's day is coming up next week. So far the snacks have been crackers or pretzels and juice. While she will eat pretzels and crackers on occasion, it is not something I usually give her. I was trying to think about what I give her for a snack and she usually has fruit, yogurt, or applesauce. Because of allergy, dietary, and religious considerations, the snacks must be peanut/meat/gelatin free. I was looking online for creative snack ideas and found one with fruit pieces on a skewer and it was called rainbow fruit. I think we will bring those in for her turn. I will blog on that after her snack day.
I also enrolled her in dance class. She loved her first day. There are 4 other girls in her class. She can't wait to go again today.
DS is a walking machine! We got him some shoes from stride rite because I wanted him to have some appropriate for his stage in walking. He had not worn shoes prior to this, so we got his feet measured and he got two pair. They were having a sale!
I finally got a chance to do some crafting~ blog to follow
We should find out in Dec if DH got the promotion and if we will be moving in the summer.
Friday, August 3, 2012
Keeping in Touch
DD misses her friends in Virginia and we have not made too many here.
I decided that we could make cards and send them to her friends. I looked through my stamps for some cute pictures and stamped the images onto some paper. I placed them on her little table with crayons and told her to color. She still needs work on her coloring skills. And then I gave her the card portion of paper and had her write her name. I hope her friends enjoy receiving the cards as much as she did making them.
I decided that we could make cards and send them to her friends. I looked through my stamps for some cute pictures and stamped the images onto some paper. I placed them on her little table with crayons and told her to color. She still needs work on her coloring skills. And then I gave her the card portion of paper and had her write her name. I hope her friends enjoy receiving the cards as much as she did making them.
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